I guess I shouldn’t be surprised by the intensity of the pain in my knees the past couple of days, but I still am. The bad days cycle around like bad PMS days that plunge me into feeling miserable and though should be highly predictable always catch me off guard; feelings that you don’t want to believe will happen again.
My days over the past week were simply jam-packed with life. I chose to do the things that pushed my limit like staying out in the evening to listen to a presentation by a local physician/shamanic healer about her spiritual journey to Peru and volunteering at an event with the Lyme group even though the two days before had by happenstance used far more energy than I had “budgeted” for them. I didn’t want to change course and let go of doing the things I had planned. I knew it was possible that I was pushing things too far and lo and behold, here I am.
I am also a little disappointed since I had planned to start a new treatment (Byron White A-L) that by its nature will push me into a herx (increase of symptoms) as part of the process of finding the right dose for me. Now I need to wait for this pain cycle to calm down knowing that I will be inducing another shortly after. I don’t know that I will ever get to a point of predicting the bad days, I don’t know that I would want to since the plan is to completely heal and eliminate them altogether.